Overall this has been a good week. I was able to make a trip to Patagonia, however, I have had trouble leaving the house since then. I guess this is just another something to deal with. I don’t like to be stuck at the house. I never used to have to worry about this. GAD is a pain in the ass! If you’ve never dealt with this mental illness, I’ll tell you some days are not easy. Some days I have a hard time just getting out of bed. I didn’t used to be like this. I used to enjoy every day to it’s fullest. I used to love getting in the car on the weekend and just heading out in some direction with no real destination in mind just me and my daughter to see what we could see. Now I can only do this on a good day. If there is any driving on the freeway I have to make sure to have another driver with me because the freeway is a cause for panic. If you haven’t lived this mental illness I can tell you it’s hard to understand. Most people don’t “get it” because it is not something you can see. I would have to explain to you what I am feeling at any point in time. You would probably never know that something was wrong until it got really bad for me and then I start showing outward signs, like trouble breathing and sweating. The way my loved ones know that I am having a bad day is that I can hardly sit still because this makes it worse. It seems to me though that most days are getting better. Of course I know this is due to the medication I am on. I dislike having to take meds every day. I hope to one day get off them, but for now it is one of my coping mechanisms.
Like I said though, it seems that most days are good ones now, I am thankful for this every day. If you have any questions or comments please let me know I would love to hear from you.
Have a great day!